Wednesday, October 31, 2007
to read when you are meant to read
It is aiding to my mythological movie idea that I started researching half a year ago , which involves a unicorn , giant, and mermaid of modern times.
Here is the weird way in which my brain works, on the way to Paris I met Jean Francois we talked about dying in the sea, he told me to make a video that he would exhibit at one of his shows, entitled I Must Die in the Ocean.
Whilst in Paris in a cafe that Satre frequented (who I had read in the summer) I wrote the screenplay for the video , which will be the mermaid death scene to the mythological movie, I hadn't written anything on the movie since my initial research.
At the time I was reading Paulo Coleho short stories and watched the movie Frida directed by Julie Taymor. I kept falling asleep with the Coleho book in my arms and having very inspiring dreams, in his book he mentions many situations that revelations come in dreams. I instantly imagined another book of Coleho's "Eleven Minutes" as a feature film directed by Taymor. (I even wrote him a message to say so)
Last night I dreamt of Coco Chanel, and while looking on http://stilinberlin.blogspot.com/ there was a link to the Chanel web site, which I browsed and discovered Coco's love of the cameilla flower, which in mythology represents purity and radiance....and it is only those with a pure heart who can tame a unicorn.
I also looked on a bio site of Julie Taymor and read this:"Rather than following a conventional theater arts curriculum however, she earned a degree in folklore and mythology"
Needless to say , all of these factors lead me to be totally inspired to continue writing the screenplay! My favorite part of movies is the symbolism in the end product and in the research and discovery process.... now I just have to find a way to meet Julie Taymor!
Sunday, October 28, 2007
moley moley mole
watched roman holiday, now i want to cut off all my hair and go to italy...i always find films that don't have cliche happy-ever-after endings very refreshing!
forget the words just keep playing
Friday, October 26, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE and KARIN!!

Thursday, October 25, 2007
hungover from happiness...and homemade wine
Thank you Iceland for making great ladies... Karin and I met up with Elin and Lena for sushi, yogurt covered goodies, Bonnie&Cylde, Harold&Maude and homemade wine pour moi finally no schoolwork only hangovers.
Mymlan, the cupboard kitty, and I slept on the couch and dreamt of dancing.
Today my head is light but my belly is heavy
Wrote this to Stuart who sometimes thinks that people are from different planets
"in my home planet we were cradled in trees, pushed along by the wind like dandelion fluff to land and grow in red soil, called a weed and pulled out bleeding, but we are very durable and can flourish in many environments some think we are beautiful but many make us feel like we don't belong, the trees watch it all and still cradle us in times of need."
Monday, October 22, 2007
social interaction is good for the soul

Since returning from Paris last tuesday I have been sitting in a computer lab at school typing my fingers to the bone writing useless business papers and studying for exams. I was feeling a bit squeamish and so in preparation for my exam today I decided to take two hours prior to thinking to do some relaxing. I went to my regular cafe where I had a nice talk with the owner, who gave me a chocolate croissant for free, so nice. Then I went to the vintage store where Karin works to see my bella amiga with her new sassy red hair and catch up on life, sewing ideas and internet links. It made me feel so nice and human after feeling like aword processor for a week. The eaxm is done, next one wednesday then momentary relaxation!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
please walk the dog
Please take the dog for a walk at dunk river, the trees will be nice and he will have a nice time in the water... maybe you can video it, you know he is awfully good without a leash there if there are no other cars parked by the trail then i think it would be okay
love Natalie
big dog, big stick , big breath of fresh air
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Saturday, October 20, 2007
a canadian in paris ~part deux~

La nourriture a paris:
the small grocers/markets are so wonderful, each day we would go and buy items for supper , I cooked for the boys each night , but I am so used to cooking for one I felt like flavor was lacking nonetheless I served a strirfry with chantrelles, olive oil pasta dish with brischetta, curry and cous cous.. and a great green bean salad with tomotoes, carmalized onion and fig with balsalmic this was a cafe salad we witnessed but were too cheap to buy.
Fromage:
Dear french cheese , will you marry me?
nouveau jour nouveau cheese
I can't even remember the names! But I will never forget the flavors. We would eat these daily delights with the best baguettes that were so light it was like eating crunchy air , add a little 4 fruit jam... divine.
Mr.Pink wowed me with his culinary skills one night, for desert he cut fresh pears in half, drizzled them with honey and baked them adding brie at the end ! sooo good!
On my last night we had smoked salmon , baguettes and two cheeses with our green bean salad
Delicatessen
In order to fully experience Paris I forced myself to try different treats. These included pain au chocolate, a nutella crepe and a cheese crepe, and on night I stayed in when the boys went out to watch a rugby game I was alone though I had a tasty custard treat that was like creme brule but in a layered square way!
All this great food was accompanied with good times and cheap red wine
Vive France!
Noah had me bicycling everyday , on the velib rental bike system that exists in Paris, that was a good excuse to not feel guilty about treating myself so much
Since returning I have taken a break from Cheese and bread (spelt bread is an acception) I don't know how those french ladies stay so trim!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
A Canadian in Paris~ part une~ Jean Fracois

Oh I enjoyed my Parisian trip so so much, just what a girl like me needs to do when school gets busy , hop on a train-plane- metro and find yourself in another world of boulangerie delights and magnificent sights.
I perfected a "new wake up at 5 am without an alarm clock" technique last Thursday night: at 1 am drink three glasses of water , take two to bed, drink them, get up and pee every hour fill up the glasses and drink again...it worked!!
I was awake and well hydrated for my 6:10 train.
Armed with my petit suitcase whom I now call Pierre, a day dress, a night dress and a Paulo Coleho book of short stories I began my journey...hopped a couple of trains , faded in and out of consciousness, and videotaped some of the journey the landscape is very Canadian.
I missed the bus to the airport so found two american students to split the cost of a cab. Skavasta airport is outside of Sweden small small, I initially sat with the americans but I had run out of conversation topics with them in the cab, so I looked around and found a new friend ,french artist Jean Francois Robardet.
It was a meant to be meeting I think, he was in Sweden curating an art exhibit which is opening next month, we talked about art and our love of Bergman's Seventh Seal, I told him about me being a mermaid and wanting to die at sea, he confessed he had just said the same thing to friends in Stockholm. He wants me to do a video called "I must die in the ocean" that he will put in one of his shows, ahhh he was so nice!
Our flight was delayed an hour so we ate together , I had a croissant and a glass of red wine I was in the french mood!
I had a priority boarding pass somehow, so I saved him a seat on the plane, we both dozed and I took video of the clouds, we took the bus into Paris together, I was so happy to see Paris and giggly he enjoyed my excitement, we went on a metro surprise trip to Champs d'Elysee where I walked up the metro stiars to see the arc de triumph so amazing , so many people.
We walked a bit down the luxury store streets and went into a famous perfume shop where he got the lady to spritz me with the the classiest perfume ....oh so romantic , thank goodness Jean Francois is gay or I would still be in Paris! He showed me how to get to Noah's on the Metro map, bought me a ticket and we parted ways , but I will see him again in November for his art opening.
Monday, October 08, 2007
think think think...

Okay I will post now before venturing into my paper writing this evening.
I procrastinated posting and now I am procrastinating paper writing.Oh dear
I had a very solitary week after Gothenburg, solitary is the name of my Swedish game, I really don't mind it but it is good for a girl to get out once in a while.
I read a lot and thought a lot, I can't help thinking a lot when I read so much really, I somehow can relate schoolbooks and leisure books to my life no matter the subject. And if they don't relate to me I really don't want to read them.
The Picture of Dorian Gray, had me thinking about men. Maya Angelou's Wouldn't Take Nothing For My Journey Now , had me thinking about women. And John Updike's Women and Museums has me thinking about men and women...
All my schoolbooks make me come up with a bunch of business plans , and future plans, and analysis on my creativeness and trustworthiness.
It's quite consuming really especially when I am not surrounded with my wonderful roomates at a table or breakfast nook or talking things through with my beloved intellectually astute friends and family. Heartbreak Hotel was such a good discussion arena, that dining room has heard so much!
I am still quite happy , I figured out that I am not lonely ...I'm just alone , and that made me feel a bit better ...I started to write a song about it
I'm not lonely
I'm just alone
There's a difference I think
When I'm alone I take care of myself
When I'm lonely I just drink
Last week I was more social, I had a great stuffed zucchini supper at Karin and Elin's that Elin made on Thurday and we all ended up ...stuffed.
Then Karin and I spent the weekend together cause it turns out she was feeling too solitary as well, we had a great time watching movies, talking and reading, as well as making tea and something to eat in 2 hour intervals!
I FINALLY got my cell phone working so now I can call my lovelies although I don't have any of there numbers here... I just have been able to reach my glorious family and Miss.Dawe. It's so strange to have them on the line, I felt like I was a ghost from another dimension who haunted loved ones with emails ...now I can haunt them with phone calls too.
I had a great revelation Saturday at 1:30, I was talking to Laura on the phone, picturing her walking through the Superstore on Quinpool, in front she ran into Ami and put her on the phone...it was really overwhelming to hear Ami's voice, I started to well up and couldn't say anything ...after I said my goodbyes to Laura, I was convinced that Halifax was the place for me to live after my studies.
I was really trying to fight it, telling people and myself before I left that I wouldn't be coming back and I hate being a hypocrite , but there are some very special people who care a lot about me there and that's where I really belong, surrounded by my loved ones, I don't know why I had myself convinced it was a bad thing. I know we will all move on and away at some point but right now , it's the only place I want to live....while traveling to and fro of course!
So there I said it, and it is a relief to know it and feel positive about it...
okay now paper time..
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
just a few more pictures
I love Gothenburg!
I felt so comfortable and happy there is was amazing, I proclaimed my love for the city 30 minutes after I arrived at the train station and made me way with Elin to one of her favorite cafes...it was pouring rain but the atmosphere of the city was so welcoming , I had the same feelings I get from Montreal, so many wonderful boutiques , cafes , and galleries soul food to the aspiring entrepreneur!
Elin and I had a fika, then she showed me a great second hand shop! Just looking at those places fills me with joy...and I found circle knitting needles....here comes a knitted skirt!
We then met up with her boyfriend Ragnar and some other Icelandic people at a bar where I experienced my first "afterwork" many bars and restaurants have this on Friday evenings, you buy a beverage (in our case it was 2 for 1 draught) and you get a plate for a buffet table...they you just eat and drink .... Swedish people loves them some buffet styles....restaurants are saving on servers wages! smart!
So I ended up getting a little tipsy on account of the 2 for 1 beer and up until the evening I could count the drinks I've had in Sweden on one hand!...anyhoo I did a good job of being drunk , Elin and Ragnar and i giggled to the train station to meet her Dad who was arriving on a business trip , he bought us all a drink at the hotel bar....then the three of us giggled our way to Ragnar's to eat dried fish with butter and have shots of a mysterious Icelandic liquor!Elin and Ragnar used to live together in Gotenburg but she now takes graphic design in the engineering building next to mine in Jönköping, she said she really really misses the city anf Ragnar, but she is happy she moved to Jönköping cause she got to meet Karin and I! She is sooo sweet we have so much in common eventhough we grew up worlds apart from each other.
Ragnar, Elin and Karin on Elin's birthday!~So Saturday in Gothenburg , I awoke ....early....with a bit of a hangover but a manageable one...had a great breakie with Ragnar and Elin and she circled streets for me to explore ....we went downtown to meet up with her dad and then I went off on my own to EXPLORE!

The shops were so neat, I spent 2 hours in a vinyl shop listening to swedish girl folk bands on the customer turntables...I think the guys that worked there may have thought that I was in the music business, or so I like to imagine ....they were really helpful and goofy! I was sooo hungry after looking at records , hungry and forgetful...I left my camera in the shop ...Ragnar is going to pick it up for me with instructions to act as though I am in the music business!! hehehehe.....I made my way to the vegetarian restaurant that Elin, the record shop guys and second hand store owner all recommended...and for good reason.....It was the BEST EXPERIENCE of MY LIFE!.......
Solrosa...step 1: order 1 of 4 entrees all vegetarin one vegan ...all sounding delicious, I picked a smaller entree of Leek and potato soup...step 2: go to the best salad bar you have ever seen , it's actually just a table with big bowls with the most beautiful and tasty assorted salads and salad fixings...couscous and olive salad, potato and cucumber salad, chickpea, ghnocci, things i didn't know....all sooo good! And bread baked with cumin seeds and homemade salad dressings....step 3: EAT! I sat on a stool by the window dancing my fork around in the air and waging my tail!! I had two nice salad helpings.....the best part is that all this plus a coffee cost me $7.50...the most expensive entre was 10.50...these are not the kinda prices I have been seeing for food!
Anyway not only did I want to stay in Gothenburg another day just to go to the restaurant, and I planned my birthday consisting of going there, someday I WILL open this restaurant in Canada!
I decided not to stay another night but to go to Gotenburg when I feel low, I walked around for a long time (walking off all the food I ate) I was sad I didn't have my camera it is stunning there, I missed my first train cause I thought 6 minutes would be enough time to get some of the chocolate balls I had when I first arrived in Sweden....ooops, had to wait 3 hours for the next rain so I sat by the canal and wrote Laura a letter !
Okay this post is way too long just such a great experience I could write forever!
Love everyone xoxoxox
Monday, September 17, 2007
Scones the international bringing together people treat

Last week was full of scones my wonderful friend Karin baked the goodies and had people over on thursday and friday , I brought strawberry jam to show my support ...delicious!
Food brought me to Karin and Elin's place on Wednesday as well, that night I made eggplant rolls with ricotta cheese and tomato sauce yumm.. oh dear all my social activities revolve around food ... Thursday afternoon Elin (from Iceland) and I met for our very first knitting fika (I made sandwhiches with roasted red pepper/red onion/dried apricots and ricotta!) it was great we talked about movies and food! oh dear ...I swear I'm not fat yet, but my tummy does this cute little fullness bulge in my highwaisted skirts that I actually enjoy!
I have successfully become a regular customer at the cafe, the owner always asks if I want "the usual" ... this means a lot to me for some odd reason.... on Saturday I went to the market to get my veggies and fruit and stopped by the cafe afterwards...a British man came up and asked if he could sit down and speak English with me .... he had lived in Jönköping for 2 years but hadn't tried learning Swedish , I brought up how some British people are fed up with their immigration policies partly because of the lack of integration effort of certain immigrants...he agreed fully ....but didn't get the irony...
I went home Saturday made some chili, finished reading Nick Hornby's High Fidelity ....do you ever find yourself thinking in the same voice as the narrative of the current book you are reading ... I do so much .... now I have to be even more selective on what I read because some narritives are just annoying to think in..... Now I am reading Oscar Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray ....so good I spent most of yesterday reading it ... oh sundays
I got some great flannel fabric at the thrift store this weekend so tomorrow I am going to Karin's to learn how to use her serger and finish a dress I've started...
School is good
Ciao
Natalie
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Today is a good day
Oh bliss!
I finally found a cafe that makes americanos, now I can sit in the cute cafe and really enjoy myself!
The owner is a very nice lady as well, I think it will become the meeting spot for knitting fika that some friends and I are planning...fika is a swedish word for coffee meeting!
I have been knitting away on the bus everyday making a scarf that is black and white! Oh Grandma Jean will be proud when I write her to say that I can knit multi colors!
Tomorrow is thrift store day , on my list is a curling iron and circular knitting needles, I am going to be taught by a friend , Elin from Iceland, how to make legwarmers and maybe even a skirt like the one she was wearing when I met her...so neat! I will also be looking for more fabric and buttons. Currently I am working on a vest with short sleeves, I am amazing myself with my free form sewing!
Last night I went to a meeting with the university Student TV group, they put together 4 shows a year that are broadcated on the local televison station, we started making plans for a halloween show, I am excited to shoot video and edit again I crave editing so badly ...it's really worrisome!
I have been writing lots of songs and today I met with a professor at the music department to see if there is a way I can record them, in a couple of weeks a recording station will be put together and I will able to use it! I want to record a handful of songs to make a little disc. My friend Karin works at a cool vintage shop on thursdays I am going to start to bring Daisy, the guitar, with me to incorporate music into my visits! Exciting stuff! I'm trying to do and then say but this made my day so I had to indulge!
I don't have class today so that is nice , I have been busy with school passed in a group paper yesterday and have another project due next week , classes meetings and readings ...busy! But enjoyable as well!
Okay I am going to go to the museum now because starting today it is free admission for the winter, I am going to absorb some Johanna Billing wondernous again and maybe venture around the rest of the museum as well!
Ciao
Natalie
Monday, September 10, 2007
Friday, August 31, 2007
How did I get so lucky?
I met two amazing girls on Wednesday, Karin Öst and I had a thrift store shopping extravaganza! I met her on myspace, I heart the internet! She is the sweetest girl ever with the best style I have seen in Sweden, she is a clothing designer who makes amazing clothes www.lilyofthevalley.se inspired by the '50's styles she sports and made with vintage fabrics! We went to 5 shops around town, I was so happy to find cheap prices and spend time with such a wonderful girl I bought buttons,a school bag, knitting needles and yarn, an iron, a cute bird needlepoint, and a hot dress for my imaginary band everything was so cheap!
We are going to try to meet often , she is going to show me how to use her serger and bake me cupcakes!!! I am the luckiest girl!
After Karin and I parted I met with the awe inspiring Johanna Billing , a director who was in Jönköping to install a video exhibition for the Film Festival that is taking place here. http://www.makeithappen.org/johannabilling.html
I had found her via myspace last year when I was doing Swedish music research, she has a mini record label that makes vinyls and CDs for talented musician friends, so I was amazed when she replied to my e-mail about meeting while she was in town. We met at the Konstmuseum (art museum) where she was installing her show and we went searching for a bar that wasn't too stuffy...hard to find around here so we settled at our third scouting location, she bought me a beer and enlightened me!
We talked about music and how it inspires our lives, most of her videos started from having a particular song in her head, they are about transitions people and cities go through, cyclical life experiences (which is something I always look at) ...I couldn't believe I was sitting there with such a talented artist...I feel like that so much in my life I am so fortunate to have so many amazingly artistic friends that brighten my existence! I was worried I wouldn't have that in Sweden, but I have been unworried!
My talk with Johanna left me excited about the possibilities I have in life, with the videos and the music and art I want to make.
THEN ...on Thursday I went to see her opening and was completely taken aback....I had to hold back tears, it was so beautiful and meaningful...my eyes, ears, heart and soul were treated to pure bliss. She was showing 4 videos, two blown up large on wooden platforms in a big empty room and two others on televisions in other hiding spots in the magnificent museum and there was a table of dvds and mini dvd players showing an art project that she started in 2002 that entailed 20 Swedish musicians singing covers of You Don't Love Me Yet by Roky Erickson, the project was then carried on in like 16 other countries....
Her videos make so much sense to me, they don't have a set beginning or end , they loop and you can get into them wherever you start watching from, she does a lot of her videos without a word spoken just background sound and the camera does the narration.
I could go on for days about her , and she said she was glad to meet me! What did I do to become so lucky, she gave me two vinyl records of the soundtracks.
I am so grateful for meeting her and am forever indebted to her for sharing her time, knowledge and kindness with me, I am so looking forward to visiting her in Stockholm. Her boyfriend is an amazing musician Blood Music who is releasing a new EP in November and his best friend is my favorite new Swedish musician Racket&Ball!
Oh My happy days....I am in a dark computer room at the moment so I will end here and continue soon....
Ciao Natalie
Hem, ljuva hem
08/26/2007
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
hola
In August gehe nach Schweden
En Augosto yo voy a Suecia
En aout je vais en Suede

























